I decided to start this blog so I would have a place to write down my thoughts. At the time I was going through some issues and I was thinking a lot. Soon those issues went away and I got laid off from work. I have been laid off for almost 3 months now and I realized that I wasn't thinking about things like I used to. When I was researching about religion and about the bible I was really happy. I was learning new information. I have realized that since I got laid off I feel more blah about issues. I am still happy I just haven't been getting that feeling that I would get when I would research things. I love to learn. I love being an Atheist. I love not being brainwashed by a religion and not living in fear of what my actions will bring. I read the God Delusion by Richard Dawkins twice and now I am reading it for the third time. When I read books like that, they get me thinking again. They get me in the mood to find truth. So I will try and update this more.
My relationship with my wife is ten times better than when she found out that I am an Atheist. One of our closest friends is very religious, my wife goes to the same church as him. When he comes over, or when we talk to him on the phone, often times they will get on a religious topic. My views are extremely different than thiers. I usually just keep my mouth shut and go into another room since I do not like confrontation and I don't like debate. I also keep quiet since I don't want to put any strain on my marraige. Our friend even brings up topics when he talks to me. I usually dissagree but I don't speak up. I am still insecure with what I believe. I feel though that if the topic is brought up then my opinion should matter. I should be able to speak up and defend what I believe. This is very hard since I have a hard time remembering things and expressing myself. I need to work on this. I know how to back up what I beleive but I have a hard time doing it. Maybe if I keep up with this blog I will be able to.
